Discovery in the dark

[Rob]

Discovery



I thought I was alone


as I laid in bed in the early morning


but I swear I heard someone breathing


beside me even though when I looked around


I saw no one.


I listened more closely and it continued.


It was in step with my own breath.



I was filled with endless haunting voices of


lingering guilt over what I have done, and not been,


ripping fears which tore away at my confidence,


close calls of life and death, and near catastrophe,


and challenging questions about my decisions.


These tormented me as I tried to go back to sleep


They annoyed me and I got angry.


The voices seemed to have kept a constant eye on my life


without tampering or judging


they brought all that has been overlooked and neglected


and  even known.


Is it possible that they were trying to help?


I have discovered that their disturbing presence 


breathes light and balance


Perhaps the way is that mysterious